College! (:

Hey there, 
So yeah its been a while and I only have 4 followers so I'm a terrible blogger I know! Well the last time I posted it was a whole bunch of drama. I think all of that is super funny now that I look back. High School drama lol. Well I am now drama free so that is good. There have been a few time that drama has tried to come into my life but I just let it pass right by. I HATE drama it is absolutely terrible. Its also ridiculous! There is no need for any of it. Alright so where did I leave off. Hmm... 

1. Since July 4, 2013 Well after all of that Rebecca had her baby. Tayton Myloh Ashworth. (He is adorable)

2. I had my 18th birthday! That whole week was very fun because it was the week of Reunion, which is like a fair the last full week of July. 


3. I met my boyfriend Tyler Caster that week. Which we are now Ex's because he thinks that he is going to be a country music star and thats going to carry him through life. LOL he's 19 lives with his parents and has yet to get a big break. He also spends all day smoking weed and all night getting drunk. This is why we are now exs 

4. I started college!! (: This is the first day of classes last semester! :D

5. I met my best friend! (: My real one this time. I trust her with everything. Shes like my sister. The cool thing about her is that she is from Africa. Her name is Rufaro. The first semester I was in College I hated my roommate and I was having a hard time making friends. Well Rufaro came around and now that its the second semester we are roommates and I have a whole lot more friends.  

6. I want to transfer schools. This college is a small university and its great and all but we have NO school spirit, its too cliquey, and everyone thinks they're better than everyone else. Its just like high school all over again. 

7. I met this boy last semester, his name is Andrew. We started talking and well almost dated and then he dropped out and went to the Air Force. He moved back to his moms house and got back together with his ex girlfriend. A few weeks ago I get this text from him saying how he broke up with his girlfriend because she was treating him terrible and just using him. He said that he wished he would have stayed with me instead and started saying all these sweet things about how all he could think of was me.. Blah Blah Blah.... So at first I was like uhm no. Then he kept trying and trying so I finally, a few days ago, said fine I could give you another try.... but theres one small problem.. he recently moved to Mississippi with his dad to do Air Force training. If I were to give him a try it would be so hard because its long distance and I would never see him. But I don't know. I'm still thinking about it. 

8. Recently I had a little drama but nothing too major. My ex best friend Tiphanee started dating my ex boyfriend Tyler. I didn't have a problem except the fact that she didn't ask me. Last year there was this boy that I realllyyyyy like named Colton. I wanted to date him but Tiphanee had dated him in the past. I asked her if I could and she said no thats not what best friends do and well I still like him a lot. I said okay and moved on. Then when this happens I get so mad because she didn't ask, even though I would have said its fine, it still makes me mad because of the whole Colton situation. Well I saw it coming but shes already cheated on Tyler multiple times with his own best friends. She was also a terrible friend. I have a lot of guy friends and well anytime I would invite one somewhere she would hit on them. At six flags she hit on my friend Jaron. It made me so mad even though I have no feelings for him. The next day she dragged me to this tiny town Paradise to some party even though I thought it was a barbecue because she lied. And was with another guy. Then another time in Denton. Its ridiculous how many guys she "talks" to not just as friends. But you know what its whatever.  Just drama.   

9. My hair has been several different colors in college: I came here with brown hair and heavy blonde highlights. Then is was a darkish blonde with some brown. Then it was dirty blonde. Then it was orange. Then it was Red. Then it was Orange again. Now its all blonde and super short. The shortest I've ever had my hair!

10. I got my nose pierced.

11. I had a job at Applebees, but they were very unorganized with the scheduling and I had to quit due to closing at 2 in the morning and getting home at 3 on a school night. Also they would always schedule me when I couldn't work.

That about it for now. I am in my second semester of college and I'm doing a lot better than last semester already. I am still looking for a job! Spring break is coming up in 3 weeks so hopefully I'll pist about that! :D Rufaro and I are going to Florida! Hopefully! Have a great day! (: 

Catching up... AGAIN!

So I have noticed that I am absolutely terrible at this whole keeping up with my blog thing... -__- Well ALOT more has happened since my last two previous posts. 1. Emily and I stopped being friend probably a gazillion times and finally we aren't friends anymore.. We aren't on good terms either but hey its alright. 2. This summer I went to Oklahoma to see my friend Rebecca 3 times and met a few new people. Theres: Josh I dated him and then he played me and now is in the army. Aaron who is Josh's cousin we call each other best friends. Chris Rebeccas husband he's crazy. Uhmm I would take Elizabeth with me to Oklahoma but this past time we had a HUGE falling out! I had to leave at 4 in the morning because I just could not handle being there anymore they were not treating me like a friend. More like an outcast so I left 2 days early and Elizabeth is now moving in there. She was calling me all sorts of bad names and well I told her the next time I see her she will eat dirt. I doubt we get in a fight but I really wish she would stop talking so bad about me and stop saying the mean things that are NOT true!  This is Chris, Aaron, and Josh! ;D They are crazyyy
                                                     

Elizabeth when we were all cool...
                                                

And all of us except Aaron.. idk where he was! Good Memories!(:
                                                       
3. I got hacked on facebook the day I got back from Oklahoma and I still do not know who did it. Well whoever it was was saying ALOT of nasty things and well Emily, Brianna (Beccas sister), Elizabeth, Chris, and Rebecca all believe that I was the one saying all that nonsense. Why would I humiliate myself that bad? They think its for attention but seriously if you guys saw what was said you know for a fact I would never! Say anything like that EVER!! They even messaged my band director calling him some very mean words and saying that I was trying drugs and all this other messed up stuff. The people who think it was me think I'm crazy literally messed up in the head! I've known Rebecca for 6 years and shes been convinced that it was me.. I just don't understand.
4. When I ever post anything on facebook I always get attacked so yesterday I deactivated my facebook and I'm going to recreate a new one for college and family. So look for the new me!(:
5. I have registered for classes!! :D Gonna be done by at least noon every day! I'm pumped for college!!!
6. I graduated on May 31st but guess what it still hasn't hit me! ;D

7. The rest of my summer is gonna be fun and I'm going to make it that way! I have had a rough start but.... I'm not gonna let anything else get in my way!(: I love you guys!

Something I found that I love!(:

This is a blog post I found on my step moms blog from 2 years ago. I was just thinking about the golf cart accident the other day because it was spring break and thats when it happened my sophomore year. I was reading on her blog looking for the story and here it is I copied the whole thing because the end makes me happy and makes my heart melt!(: I love my step-mom so much and its a blessing to have her in my life. I can have 3 hour conversations with her and she relates to me! I just love having those talks because I don't ever have them at my house with my own mom. I love how she helps me and gives me advice I love being able to have her in my life. I have gotten a lot closer to her in the past few years!(: Everytime I see her we have long talks and that is ome thing I always look forward to when I visit!(: There are more than one of her posts that I love but this is just the story for those of you who do not know!
(Remember this is from her point of view not mine!)(:
Whew!
I was supposed to go to San Antonio (around there) this weekend to see my step-son, Tyler. He's 18, and spending the next few weeks down there. We had it all planned out. Russell had to work on Friday, so I was to take the kids down to Alvarado to his parents' house, and he was going to meet me there when he got off work. We were to drive down that night.
Some time Friday afternoon Chandler, Carter, Caden, Makenna, Mariah (my 15-year-old step-daughter), and Hannah (my 16-year-old niece) went for a ride on the golf cart. Something everyone has been doing regularly for the las 10 years or so, ever since my in-laws moved out to the country. Ann and I were sitting in the family room with Conner, just visiting, when Caden came running to the front door. He stepped in and said "There was a crash, and everyone's bleeding." Then he just stood there. At first, I admit, I thought he was kidding, but when I looked at his little face, I knew it was no joke. I got up, grabbed his hand, and we took off. Once we were outside I could hear the screaming and crying coming from the trees. I looked down at Caden as we ran, to ask what happened, and saw that he was sobbing. As we came over the hill I glanced over at my brother-in-law, Ricks' house and saw Carter and Chandler walking in, so I knew that whatever happened to them could wait. When I looked ahead again I saw Hannah, Mariah and Makenna making their way over the hill. Hannah's face was bloody, and she just kept saying "This is all my fault" and "I'm so sorry". I tried to reassure her, while trying to assess the injuries. Makenna was crying, and really bruising on the left side of her collar bone. Of all, though, I was most concerned about Mariah. She was still screaming, and rubbing her eyes. She kept saying "My eyes are burning". We ran back to the house and started flushing her eyes, while we tried to figure out who needed medical attention. Ultimately, we learned that Chandler had lost his glasses and had a giant bruise on his hip, and Caden had a big scrape across his side. Those two just needed to rest and settle down. Carter and a cut on the side of his head that I knew would need stitches, I was concerned Makenna's collar bone might be broken, and I was worried about Mariah's eyes. Hannah busted her lip and knocked a couple of teeth a little loose, but they should tighten back up on their own. So Ann and I took the three kids in need of attention, piled into her van, and backed out of the driveway....right into the side of MY van. Ann, who was driving, about had a heart attack, but I just cracked up laughing. Just one of those things. We didn't even get out the check the damage, we just headed to the hospital. Carter ended up with four staples in his head, which he thinks are really awesome, they X-rayed Makenna's chest and collar bone, and they came back fine. She'll just be really sore, they said. And Mariah had her eyes flushed, which was so bizarre! They put these, like, full-eye contact things in her eyes with tubes coming out of them. She looked like some experiment. It was crazy, but she handled it like a champ, and it really helped. The doctor said that whatever it was (we assume it was battery acid) burned the top layer of her left eye, and eyelid. She can see, though, which is great. He put her on an antibiotic, and she has to see an Opthamologist on Monday. They also X-rayed her knee, which ws really swollen, but that came back fine, too. All in all, it could have been a whole lot worse, and I'm counting my blessings. Later, we heard the story:
Hannah, bless her heart, was driving, and as they went down what is known as "roller coaster hill", they hit a rock, and went airborn. The front tire came off (it's a three-wheeled golf cart) and when they came down, the prongs that hold the tire embedded into the ground, completely stopping their forward progress. Their momentum (they were probably going around 20-25 mph) caused them to tip forward, and the golf cart ended up face down. Chandler, Carter and Caden were in the back, where the golf bags go. Chandler and Caden ended up "on top" of the golf cart, because they stayed put, Carter was thrown from the cart, and hit his head on something. Hannah hit the steering wheel and ended up stuck between it and the ground. Makenna ended up stuck under one of the front frame bars. Mariah was near her, with her arm stuck under the same bar. The seat opened, where the batteries are held, and both batteries fell out, spilling what we assume is battery acid. Whatever it was, it not only burned Mariah's eyes, but it also bleached her shirt, jeans and shoes. A little of it also got on Makenna's jeans and feet. When Caden got out to run to Granny's house for help, Chandler and Carter headed to Uncle Rick's house. Mariah, even in pain, was able to tilt the golf cart upright and get Makenna out. It was a blessing from Heavenly Father that Conner wasn't sitting in Mariah's lap. He had ridden with them earlier, but for whatever reason, decided to pass up this time. Thank goodness. Another tender mercy.
Needless to say, I didn't go to San Antonio. Russell left at about 4:30 this morning, but I just couldn't leave the kids. I stayed there until after breakfast to make sure everyone was still OK, and then headed home with Makenna and Conner. I was (am) so completely exhausted, physically and emotionally. I know that we were blessed, and that it could have been so much worse, but I can not tell you what it felt like to hear my kids screaming and I couldn't run fast enough. So draining.
So tomorrow I'm taking the day off. Makenna, Conner and I are going to stay home and relax. We'll watch a little TV, maybe read a book or two, and maybe even take a nap. Conner and I took one today while Makenna played on the computer, and it was so wonderful. Russell will be home with the other kids tomorrow afternoon, and then all will be right in the world.
You know, this wasn't fun, but I feel closer to Mariah today than I ever have. She and I both did so well yesterday until bedtime, and then we both had our own little meltdowns. She's such a sweetheart, and such a great big sister to the little kids. There's always a blessing to be found, even in adversity, and this greater awareness of my love for Mariah is a really wonderful blessing to me. I'm so thankful that everyone is OK.
Well, except my van...

Catch up? I think yes!(:

Wow so the last time I posted was in MAY!! Whatt?? Dang I'm so far behind!!! So as you all should know I am a Senior now and well I have been for a while seeing as I haven't updated in a while. I graduate in 2 Months!!! WHAT!! That is sooo close! I am scared! I can't wait though!(: So heres a few things that have happened!(:
Drama/Social Life:
1. I started the year alone because my Best Friend Sonia is in college now.
2. I made a new best friend Emily Westfall.


3. We did lots of fun things. Saw lots of scary movies, went to cutting edge, the zoo, the mall, etc.
4. Elizabeth her twin sister and me got close as well.
5. Emily told me a big secret which kinda changed our friendship.
6. We stopped being friends because I am a "two-faced bad word" WHAT!?! I am not I don't know where she even go that.
7. Elizabeth and me got really close.


8. We were supposed to go camping for spring break.
9. Her mom said no that I couldn't go because I'm a "bad influence" ughh whatever.
10. We stopped being friends.
11. Tiphanee, Casie, and I became really close and now we are best friends.
12. Spring Break was amazing I got to fly to Missouri and see my dad, step-mom, and all my younger siblings! We had a blast!(:



School Life:
1. Well in October I got accepted to Midwestern State University in Wichita Falls TX!!(: I was so excited!! :D


2. I got a new dog her name is Juliet and she is a Border Collie!
3. I became section leader of the Clarinets in Marching Band.
4. I got 1st chair for concert season and have received a few solos!!!(:
5. I made straight A's on my previous report card!
6. I've got 2 speeding tickets.. -__-
7. I have to do an online defensive driving coarse.. :/
8. I found my prom dress over spring break!!(: It's really cute! This is it:


So yeah thats about all but I am super excited for college its going to be a blast.. I am kind of struggling right now with it all though. I try my hardest with the scholarships but I am not very good with them. I also have to apply for loans and grants. I have to fix my Fafsa because its messed up. Prom is coming up and I'm stressing about that. I get my graduation invitations this week which is stressing me out. I have to get my senior pics done! Ughh I'm just very stressed out right now! I love you guys!(: I'm going to try my best to post more often if at all possible just bare with me til I get past this stressful time!(:

Maggie:(

Well as you know from an earlier post my dog Maggie has been doing good and bad on and off. Well my parents were in England for the past 2 weeks and we took our dogs to a kennel while they were gone. Well my mom didn't tell me until today that my dog Maggie had passed away on Wednesday because of a stroke.. I burst into tears when I heard.. But I know she was in alot of pain and now she is feeling alot better.. :/ I will still miss her. If you knew Maggie she was a really annoying dog I loved her anyway. She always barked all the time.. Her breath smelled horrible even after those doggie toothbrush bones. But she always if anyone (especially a guy) came anywhere near me would start barking and wouldn't let them touch me. It got annoying sometimes but I know that she was only trying to protect me. I am very upset that I barely got to say bye but I know she is not in any pain anymore. :/

Phone!!!!):

So I went camping last night and I barely slept.. We went night swimming at like 1 in the morning it was so much fun!! But we had bought marshmallows to play chubby bunny with and when I did fall asleep like 1 hour later at 5 the guys were throwing the extra marshmallows in my car windows where mew and Sonia were sleeping.. I got mad so eventually I crawled through my sun roof to my roof I love looking at the stars from there. Anyways... I brought my phone up there and they started throwing marshmallows at me so I jumped down real fast. Then I changed into my bathing suit and we went swimming again to watch the sunrise.Well without realizing it I forgot my phone on my roof. When we were done swimming Sonia was still sleeping so I woke her up and we left. Well when we were on the highway I heard a loud noise that sounded like something fell off my roof I didn't think anything of it. So I kept going.. I dropped Sonia off and then I went home.. I couldn't find my phone anywhere.. SO now I have to give my mom $100 to get a replacement.. Dang and I had just unlocked the other levels on Angry Birds... :PP

Brown?

So did I ever tell you that I dyed my hair brown? Haha well I did and I got used to it but... I want it blond again.. :/ I love it.. Its just that I miss my blond hair.. :/ Anyways... It looks green in florescent light and so this jerk of a girl and her friend always make fun of it.. all well shes a Freshman and her friend is a Sophmore so I really don't care.. Haha..:P